Who are we kidding? It's a diet, NOT a lifestyle change.

There are two things that I know, unequivocally, about myself. 1) My longest streak on a "lifestyle change" is 23 days. 2) I am as consistent as a New England weatherman. For the life of me I can't figure out what my commitment issue is. Why do I have such a hard time with this "Discover a Better Me" thing? Last year I lost 50 pounds and this year I gained 50 pounds. So I'm breaking even! WooHoo! If I was the economy then I wouldn't be doing too badly. I am so desperate to be the smallest version of me possible that I have bought, tried, and given away every diet book, idea, and pill there is. I love the whole, "It's not a diet, it's a lifestyle change!" revolution. Seems like a great concept except for one thing: my lifestyle change is simply living the rest of my life on a diet! Ahhhhh!!!!!!

On January 5, 2010 I will begin my second "Biggest Loser" competition at my gym. The first time I made it through 3 weeks. I'm hoping that my Diet and Exercise ADD doesn't kick in until after the 12 week program. For once in my life I'd like to finish something that I started! Mind you, January 5 is a good 3 weeks away from this point. Do you know how much damage I could do from now until then? I also have this tendency to eat as if it's the last time I'll ever have solid food again before the start of my diet. So I'm making a little mini-goal of getting under 200# on my home scale by the start of the competition. Seriously though, who starts a diet at Christmas? This girl!

I've got a few things looming over me. My 30th birthday at the end of March. Potential nursing school starting in September. My oldest son entering middle school. All of these things give me the desire to feel my best, be my healthiest, and be my fittest. If I don't do it now when will there ever be a better time? Life just gets more complicated with each passing year. My time is right now.

Since my last post I have discovered a few valuable things:1) Lace can stretch a wicked lot. Thus, the one size fits all Lacie panty at Victoria Secret is legit. 2) Satin does not stretch AT ALL! Thus, the one size Santa Garter at Victoria Secret is a lie. 3) Falling off the step box during the speed step track is actually more scary for the people around you then it is for you. 4) Spending loads of your husbands $$$$ when he doesn't treat you nicely actually makes you feel a little bit better.